"friends" (go back »)

being his friend at this point is one of the hardest things i ever had to do

it's b.c he t0ld me that he always felt for me & the reason he can't be with me is b.c i'm far



it may sound like he's playing with my heart but he's not, i'm not t h a t stupid



all along he's been his old sweet self with a few mean comments in between

but like i told him "i know you're a genuine person inside but sometimes with the comments you say you're a monster. & i have no other explanation for it but that you're heartless"


thing is he's done messed up stuff in the past but he always finds a way to justify it into a reason that makes me look dumb

EX: like when we broke up & he didn't open the door when i was outside his house n made me cry. but he later told me he didn't want to yell at me & be mean & for me to have sex with him to try to get him back cuz i would regret it.


so i told him to justify the hurtful comments he said lately & he sed

"sometimes he acts like an asshole so i won't want to be together"


so he doesn't want me to hurt and miss him.
it's hard b.c that makes me want to be with him so much more
ahh my feelings are strong

& now we're "friends"
but how do you do it ?